So over myself

Have you ever just been completely fed up with, and sick of yourself?!? I am totally there lately. I keep making the same mistakes, I keep wasting time in the same exact ways, and I keep using the same half-truths to rationalize my choices.

I am filled with so much confusion lately (about multiple areas of my life), and yet I don't seem to be making any progress towards figuring things out. In truth, I'm only half-trying. This isn't like me. This is like some watered-down version of me. The hours and days of my life are flying by, but I feel as if I'm living in some kind of infinite loop. I keep landing back in the same place, and the loop repeats again.